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Post by Meluivan Indil on Dec 2, 2005 22:49:49 GMT -5
i... am.... ging.... to..... die..... ARE THERE NO GUYS WHO CAN TALK!!!! I know there are 4 more of u out there!!!! AGGGHAONIFNOINCOEONLJFN!!! Fine, I'll start a discussion: Lately everyonce in a while, I think seriously about commiting suicide.... anyone ever have this happen. I think everyone thinks about that sometimes. I remember once riding down the road in the passanger seat of my car, and looking out the window, thinking all I'd have to do is open the door, and out I'd go. If I did it just right, my neck would snap. That was a couple of years ago, and life has changed since then. I don't have those thoughts anymore. I have learned to better control my pain and depression. I have other outlets for it. So I guess you can say I've gotten to a better place within myself. M.
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Post by chibinaru on Dec 3, 2005 13:52:13 GMT -5
I'm so sorry you're feeling that way, ark. I used to feel this way almost everyday in middle school. It was a really depressing time, and alot of my friends I have now felt the same. I wrote really depressing poetry (during class, which I PROBABLY shouldn't reccomend). I turned them into poetry fics, actually, which is what helped me with my writing. So now when I feel depressed, I'll either draw or write. That helped alot.
It's normal for everyone to think about it every once in awhile, but too often isn't healthy. I still have thoughts sometimes, like when driving at night and there's nothing around. It can be hard to get through, but then I remember all the things I want to do when I get older and it helps somewhat. I was a bit shocked out of my depression when I had a dream one night about watching my own funeral. It really scared me. So I try to find other things to control it.
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Post by LadyRiona on Dec 4, 2005 17:26:56 GMT -5
I...don't think I've had too many thoughts about killing myself. I think too fast to really register what goes through my brain half the time, so if I have, they're gone in a split second when I see something shiny. xD No, I don't have ADHD or ADD, I just have a strange attraction to lighters, shiny stuff, markers, and paint pens. I know when I was younger, though, I would get depressed a lot. I still do, but I'm like Naru in that I filter it into writing. It's much easier to write about something when you are experiencing it or have experienced it in the past. I have never given out my personal info on a public forum like this. One friend that I know, though, for only a couple months, I have sent her a package so I have her address and she has mine. But we've both seen pictures of each other, and either she's come up with a really convincing story each time we've talked or she's really her! lol This is just me, but I think that the chances of actually meeting a stalker online are minor. I mean, the ratio could probably be like, 1 in 5 people, but unless you really post your AIM name or whatever IM service you use, or the ASL stuff, it wouldn't attract their attention. At least, that's just my thoughts. I don't go to chat rooms since that IS the place to meet stalkers and probably 1 in 3 people are stalkers there, I don't often make random friends like that. I'll email people back if they send me a nice review, and I've made a couple friends that way, then you guys here, too. But that's about it. Okay, *flips coins* Sorry, no soap boxes this time, Al. That wasn't philosophical or ranty.
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Post by alanna on Dec 4, 2005 18:13:26 GMT -5
heheheeh soap boxes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARK it's ok to think bout killing ur self i do it all the time. just i am too lazy to follow through Anime i also used to write depressing poetry in class but then a teacher who cared bout me found them and sent me to the guidence counceler and then they put em on anti depressents but i don't take them they cost too much!!!!!!!! LADY R i am also attracted to shiny stuff and fire!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LUV AL
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Post by LadyRiona on Dec 4, 2005 18:32:45 GMT -5
LADY R i am also attracted to shiny stuff and fire!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LUV AL My nickname is Pyro. I haven't had suicidal thoughts, really, because I know it's pretty stupid to do. It's selfish, because you aren't thinking about how your death will affect other people. You're too focussed on yourself and your problems that you don't realize that people are trying to help you. Like Al's guidance counselor. Though it sucks to have to see them sometimes, but it really does help. When I was about 13, I started seeing a psychiatrist for about two and a half months because I was depressed. Now, I'm just kinda...swinging around between it all, but doing fine despite it. I mean, I'm sure if I was up to really admitting stuff to myself, I'd probably come up with some surprising subjects. But again, I know that whatever would come up, I would have to deal with, either with help or by myself. Although help is nice, I don't think we always need it. There really are things we "just need to do alone."
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Post by alanna on Dec 4, 2005 18:52:38 GMT -5
My psycologist said that i think of others too much and i don't think about myself it was sooooo true at that time and it was my GP that put me on AD he is the best eva and we always go to him EG when i was Even more depressed, when my bro cut his finger on a can of dog food ect ect. LUV AL
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Post by Ark on Dec 4, 2005 21:34:53 GMT -5
I LIKE LIGHTERS!!!! >_> <_< AEON FLUX IS AN AWESOME MOVEH, SHE = SMOKIN HOT!
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