i think i'm breaking

[paintedmusic]

i think i'm breaking...
11.07.07

She walks slowly
as if she’s trying not to drop something
(like a lonesome, suicidal tear)
because she’s afraid she might
b r e a k

So she blinks a lot
to keep them locked behind glass eyes.
the wells of bitten-back tears pool in her palms.
she closes her fist on them
because she’s afraid she might
b r e a k

So she stares out the classroom window
(during her favorite subject)
so that it appears that her only problem is disinterest
because she’s afraid she might
b r e a k

So she smiles like the princess she
pretends.to.be (but if you
look deep enough, you can
see that her eyes are really dead inside)
because she’s afraid she might
b r e a k

So she says she’s fine when they ask
and eventually their concerns will fade
(like they were ever genuine in the first place)
because maybe, if she says it,
it will really be true

And then she stills her pointless trek
her cautious eyes and hidden sighs,
her close-the-curtain smiles,
her blatant denials that no one can see
because she (finally) realizes she’s already
BROKEN.

[Lady Idril]

Beautiful. It has a tragic sort of feeling to it. One thing I can never stand about society is how we all assume we know everyone else's mind like our own; we sometimes forget that everyone is different and everyone has a secret or some sort.

Wonderful job with this one.

[paintedmusic]

Agreed. Sometimes people will sound cliché, and other people write the person off as another "emo" or just "teenage angst." Well, as it so happens, I am neither of the above. I was just feeling depressed -- I was trying to ignore it, deny it, etc., etc., etc. So maybe the topic sounds cliché, but the emotions have never been felt in exactly the same way by anyone else. Because even in the same situations, people think differently and feel differently.

[Lex]

Cool. I wonder if it is jsut as effective with 'b r e a k' as just 'break' on the previous line?