I'm Not Who You Think I Am

[panther]

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Just some ponderings on my life and who people view me as. But they never see the girl beneath the facade.
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I'm Not Who You Think I Am

I’m not who you think I am!
I’m just a girl,
But I have a dark side--
I can hurt others as easily as they can hurt me--
I have nothing that can truly hold me back,
And I am a cruel person.
I have suppressed my feelings for so long--
I doubt if I have them myself.

I’m not who you think I am!
I’m a girl with few friends,
Because all that come near me
Realize that all I do is lord over them.
I can’t stop myself from hurting others,
Even when I know that it’s really me I’m hurting;
But sometimes the pain just feels so good,
And you don’t want it to stop;
So you push the knife deeper into your arm--
And you stare at the red drops
As the crash into the pure snow.

I’m not who you think I am!
There are times I don’t know who I am,
I’m just a confused girl with no outlet for her emotions.
Perhaps I’m crazy,
Perhaps I’m insane,
But that won’t take away the poison,
And that won’t kill the pain.

I’m not who you think I am!
I’ve branded my friends before--
Left my symbol marked on their minds,
So they can’t return to their lives--
I’m a girl that can’t be stopped,
And I’m not the only one.

I’m not who you think I am!
I’m not that quiet girl,
I am the girl that lurks inside;
Her other nature--
The part you never see--
I am the pantheress inside the girl,
The pantheress you never want to meet.